With Love...: April 2012

I haven't posted because nothing too exciting has happened, no real thought provoking ideas and nothing that needed immediate blog documentation. So I will do a bit of a catch up now as it is due. I have kept pretty busy the last while, with work, babysitting and making a few trips up to London. My roller coaster of emotions continues to leap and dive, with one day being positive, the next being in the complete pits. I have been really really positive the past few days, feel like I am hitting a positive plateau, which is good as I was sick of on little thing sending me into a slump. Do not like being a Negative Nancy!

My mum has decided to move back to Winnipeg with me, which was quite unexpected. It puts quite a lot of worries to rest and helps to solve some problems. Get things back on track, that have been off for a while. My boyfriend has found a perfect job for him which lifts some worry from my mind as I know it will do him so much good and extra positivity that he could use. I think it's a few little things that have been weighing on my subconscious that have worked out (as I certainly haven't been working things out. I have been terrible trying to put them off and not have to deal with them) and allowing the emotion coaster to come to it's end.

My mum and I are also getting closer to a date to come home, looking into flights. It's looking like June time, it's nice to have an idea of when I will be returning, how much time I have left here. And I have so much planned for when I get home and looking forward to it all, but also a list to do here as well. A little more inspired to get going on doing things I want to do here, and looking forward to home!

The other day I heard myself laugh, really laugh. It was the first time in ages that I have heard myself like that. Upon hearing myself laugh, I just laughed more, to hear it more. It was so beautiful to hear something that had been missing so long, and how truly beautiful it was, and made me incredibly happy. It is a bit of a sad thought, that things are in a situation were laughter is scarce. It gives me the confidence that I have made it through these incredibly difficult few months, that I can make it through a couple more. I will always laugh again, even if the hardy laugh goes missing for a while. I am building myself immensely, laughter will always return and remind you of what is good.

My good friend Heather came to visit as well. We went to Camden Market, I haven't been to before and was really neat. I like markets, really neat atmosphere. And my favourite place, Brighton! Did lots of shopping and catching up, it was wonderful. Nice to get out and about, see some new places and familiar faces (did not mean that to rhyme).

I watched the boat race, a rowing race between Cambridge and Oxford universities (really posh, rich "rara's"). Never heard of it before, and got super into it. It was actually surprisingly excited, with a swimmer in the Thames having to restart the race and a broken ore, so much drama! Makes me want to start rowing, will have to jump on the machine at the gym.

I just spent a lovely afternoon/evening with my family. I was a little worried about it as it was 16 people, and I get can stressed out and anxious with lots of people. But, I had a fantastic time, put up the trampoline (they needed my super strength, for reals) and had a bounce with my cousins, ate far too much, talked and laughed with my family, learned what a Chav is, and received far too much chocolate. I really enjoyed myself, and makes me sad to be thinking of leaving, which I think may be the first time. Just won't think about that then, A really great Easter.

Sorry it was not a very exciting or interesting post. Lots of pictures though!