I'm sorry for the wait for the latest blog post. I've been in a bit of a rough patch, feeling quite 'stuck', and trying to write a blog from this spot seemed impossible. This move is a lot more difficult then I though it was going to be, and holds a lot more extreme and wide variety of feelings that I never thought I'd have. It is not as simple as I thought it was going to be, I thought things would simply fall into place and I would quickly lead a happy, busy year. I am finding I have to work much more to get the things that I thought would be conveniently set before me. I felt a little over run by all the things that I felt I had to do. And quite lost and frustrated not knowing where anything is and not being able to do too much on my own. I am feeling more positive now, I still have many worries filling my mind, but am hopeful I will find some sense of security soon.
As for updates of what's been going on, I have celebrated 3 birthdays ( including my mum's!), gotten my National Insurance number (so I can get a job now), and gone to Convent Garden (A shopping area, along the lines of Osborne, but to the extreme). The fact that I am now able to go out and get a job is quite nerve wracking. I've decided I want to work in a nursery, and have a few in mind, so just hope something works out! I am ready to start a schedule and have something to do. Still scary going out there, but I have been haunted a poster that reads "Keep Calm and Carry On". I seem to be seeing it everywhere, and I take as a sign of advice, as simple as it is, to just stay calm and keep moving as things will work out in the end.
I also re-read all my letters that I received from loved ones before I left. They warmed my heart to hear such kind words and filled me with a tremendous feeling of love. They held guidance and advice to help me through my time in England, to help me remain in one happy piece and know I can get through it all. I got messages from friends for comfort and guidance as well, which was incredibly nice. Not for the fact my friends were having a rough time too, but they could still come to me when I am far away, that they trusted in me, and loved me that much. I've always called myself the Mama of my friends, and in this time, I truly felt that I was. I care for my friends so much and want them to be happy, when they are upset, I feel upset for them and try to help them find a way to feel better. I try and keep them positive and chugging on, I suppose I should take some of my own advice.
So my lovely friends, I will update again soon, Keep Calm and Carry On!
Watch this video, as I have been watching it consistantly, always making me laugh.
Flowers from the garden
Cake I baked for my cousin. I placed all the chocolate stars on, it took a long time.
Happy Birthday Mim!
This is Dennis. He lives with his fish friends in my Aunt and Uncles pond. He's HUGEEE
Fall is coming!
Tommy, sleeping on my Uncle's Porsche, LOLcat forsure
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