With Love...: Home, Let Me Go Home

What? Actually updating my blog again? Unbelievable. Well, it's because it's been sort of a stressful week, and I have been explaining the situation to all members of my family and thought I would just share it here so I don't have to share it again (guaranteed I will have to still). I thought I had gotten things all sorted out for the next few months, I like having a plan and have general idea of where things are going and trying to achieve that this week has failed miserably. Soo, here's the story:

The family I am looking to join as an au pair, the parents are both police officers. They are going to be awfully busy during Olympics time because England/London will be complete manic, so they will definitely be needing an au pair in that time. I understand that, and did when I first starting talking to this family. What I didn't understand is that the Olympics are in July/August/September. I thought they were in June/July, FAIL. Before realising that they began in July, I spoke to my friend Hannah who is coming to England to go to college, which I am so excited about! Finally, a friend! Anyways, so she was talking about that, and visiting me and maybe going travelling like we had spoke and dreamt of in Grade.12. A shortened, very condensed version of our first idea of travelling Europe, more like a week in Ireland, Scotland or France, beautiful and something to look forward to all the same. And I was like brilliant! Au pair until June/July, then travel a little bit before heading home to Winnipeg in August to go to school (which I am so looking forward to), with plenty of time to prepare for my future endeavour of university. A perfect plan of the next few months mapped out for me, it was wonderful, for all of 5 seconds, and then my pristine plan smashed into a thousand sad pieces due to the fact that the Olympics/Paralympics are ridiculous and choose to go on for a lifetime (Okay, 3 months). And then began the stress of trying to piece back together the jigsaw that was my plan, smashed into a thousand pieces.

With much thought, and admittedly, much moping and sitting in my room by myself, a general idea has come about, but not without a substantial amount of effort and thought. Reasons of why I wanted to be home in August, I MISS MY FRIENDS, FAMILY AND BOYFRIEND LIKE NOBODY'S BUSY, I could get back into my dance classes and assisting dance classes that I am missing so much, go to my cottage as everyone knows the lake is the best spot to be,ever, and finally start that next chapter of my life called "University". All reasons I thought pretty decent and enough to call me back to the motherland. Lots of thoughts and ideas have flowed through my now fried brain, and it has simply come to this, in the long hall, a couple months really isn't a long time. It has been SO hard to come to this. Having had a plan, and having an idea of how things were going to go it was difficult to let that go and try and see things clearly for simply what they are. A couple extra months in a beautiful country. School will always be there, dance I can get into late, my family and friends will always be there for me, but this opportunity, may not. I do not want to get back to Winnipeg and say "I wish I au paired" "I should have stayed the extra couple months". A couple months in my lifetime, will not add up to much in the end, though now it will feel like ages. As much as it pains me to start to put that jigsaw back together in a new way, that's the way that it fits now. It's not a for sure plan, but it's a see how it goes. Just hope the heartache and homesickness is all worth it.

This whole thing may sound super dramatic, to me it is a big deal, and having a plan and then have it slip through my fingers is tough to deal with and get around the fact that that won't work now, have to figure out something else. I do think it's all happening for a reason, and something is pushing me to stay longer and enjoy England, call me crazy.

I don't really have much else to update, it's sorta late, and that's all the thoughts I have been having this week. I will try to conjure up some new ones for the next post to keep you interested and updated on things going on.
Wait, do have somewhat of an update. I am going to see Billy Elliot with family, which I am really looking forward to, seeing stage productions in London is AMAZING. There is also a lot of talks of things we want to go see, including the Harry Potter Experience which is exploring the real sets of HP, DON'T KNOW HOW STOKED I AM FOR THAT, and going to the Royal Opera House to see around backstage and hopefully see some of the dancing, also super excited about, normally just get jealous at these things as I am not that good at dancing. And, my English family is thinking of going to Florida August 2013 to go to Disneyland and such, so there is discussion of me flying/driving down to meet them (assuming I am in Winnipeg) as I know I will be missing them lots after getting to know them more and spending time with them on my stay here. All so excited, this all cheered things up a bit after a chaotic week.

Pictures this week are a couple photos of some of the craftin' I have been doing. I may ask those that received the present to send pictures of their gifts in use, and I will show those!